Darn it. Eddie was canning tomatoes yesterday and accidentally knocked over my Mary Kay Lipstick Mug. It was one of my favorites, but I hope my Mary Kay consultant can get another one for me. I kind of doubt it though. She didn't seem to think that she could. I found one on Ebay and bid on it, so we'll see what happens. Mine didn't look exactly like the one above, but it was very similar.
Things have just been crazy lately. We've had 2 deaths last weekend and both on Saturday. One death was my half-brother's other half-sister. I didn't know her and had never met her, but it affected him and then in turn affected me. He's feeling pretty bummed out right now. He feels like all of his family is falling apart. The other death was a good friend of my cousins. She had become my friend too, even though I wasn't as close to her as he was. She passed away last Saturday and she was only 49. My cousin is pretty bummed out too. I didn't think I would cry, but when I got to the church where the service was being held and saw all the flowers, and everything I just lost it for a few minutes. She had been cremated, but there were lots of pictures of her s a young woman and mother. It was very emotional.
The other things that are going on are with my mother. She has been having some trouble with her thigh and knee. She went to an orthopedic doctor who ordered an MRI and the results came back fine. He said it wasn't anything orthopedic and that there was nothing he could do to fix it. A couple of years ago she had an anuerysm that she had surgery for. A stent was put in to repair it and since then it has steadily been shrinking. The last ultrasound she had showed that it had gotten a little larger. The orthopedic doctor said it could be pressing on a nerve or something and causing my mother pain in her leg. I just don't know what to think. It's all so stressful worrying about everything and wondering if she's going to be ok or is she going to have to go through another surgery at 87 years old. And then, will she survive it. And if she does, what kind of recovery will she have to go through? One of my cousins told me that I need to stop worrying about things that I have no control over and turn them over to God. I know that's what I need to do and I have turned them over to God, but it's hard to not worry.
